Reclaiming Control

Thursday, March 10, 2011

I’ve been watching The Biggest Loser this season. Cheering these people on as they take back the control over their bodies and go through all the emotion, the pain, and the struggles that come with recognizing and reworking who you are, has been inspiring.

Watching them overcome at least one thing that they have lost control of has made me wonder where I’ve lost control. Sometimes it’s easier to go through your daily life, never taking the time to think and ponder about your progress, never meditating on or even formulating your goals. It’s easier to stay so busy that you never have to worry or question if there is something awry. I suppose “busyness” can become a sort of drug, an escape from reality.

So I sat and pondered my own progress. There were many things that came to mind. Some that would be obvious to others, and some that are personal, hidden struggles. But for each one,
taking control came down to working hard, consciously making those little decisions every day. True change does not happen with only half of an effort. True change can only be achieved when you give all that you have, everything.

I could feel idea after idea come tumbling down, unlocked from the hiding places of the mind. I realized that I needed to fix and adjust and work harder at everything. I realized that I controlled a rather insignificant portion of my life and that I mostly teeter near the edge...

My heart began to race, the anxiety of the situation loomed ever so large. But then gently I was reminded of the one magnificent, priceless gift I was given. My Savior loved me so much that He gave His life to make up the difference. There are things I can learn to control with His help, there are things I can learn to overcome with Him by my side. And the things I don’t quite get right? He’s provided for them as well. For I know that when I stand before the throne, after all I could do myself, Christ will stand with me; my friend, my comforter, my Savior.